Spending money

I have decided to spend some money on something I have wanted for years. It is a some what practical thing. At the same time I feel guilty because it is something only I will ever use.
I am going to buy... an inexpensive but brand new, out of the store in a box... sewing machine.

Now here is the thing, I have 3 solid metal machines already. One works great and I love using it. One I have the book to but it is ancient (1940's) and I need to have more experience before I tackle it. The last, well I can not get it to do any sewing. it just garbles the thread. I took it to the repair guy and he said it is fixed, that cost more than the Brother or Singer at wally or Target. It still just garbles the thread. It seems to me the timing needs work, but the timing screw is missing. He said the timing is fine. I should have suspected something when he had the sewn sample, but the machine was not fully threaded and he said he had already forgotten how to thread it (when I asked him to show me how)...

The issue I have with my wonderful all metal last forever work like an ox metals, is they are all metal. That means HEAVY. The Kenny in its table takes 2 people to move. The Ward, I can not lift and it is portable. The ward is the one that garbles thread. The White, like the Kenny is in a table and takes 2 people to move.

I want a machine I can bring into the dining area to sew on. Where I have some space to work. Cut the patterns and fabric and not feel cramped. My other 3 are in my bedroom. There is no space to work in there. (the White must sit in the closet as it is. I can not use it as a display to show off its sleek black lines) Right now there is also no place else to put them.

I still feel guilty even though I know a decent, easy to use machine will help me earn money. I used to sew and sell aprons and sold out fast. Then the machine went back to its owner and I could not sew anymore. Until I got Kenny. I did some aprons for gifts and a few for sale. Then I got sick and life has just been a rush of lack of time and or space since then. This new machine can fix the space issue. Organizing and prioritizing can fix the time issue. Now PH has it's mall up so I will have a place to offer my aprons.

This time, I will only sell things I have already made, no special orders, those almost killed me last time!

I still feel a bit guilty. it is something I have planned for and worked for for years, but it is still a ME item. i do not like Me Items. However this is a me item that can ultimately benefit the whole family...

The logic is invest in the machine. The reasoning is valid. The worry wart in me says but what if...

The funny thing is, other than the worry wart part (and I have learned to recognize it for what it is) I am at peace in the decision. The money is available. No bill will go unpaid if the machine is bought, food will not be stolen from our plates. The only thing it will change is, my last excuse to really learn to sew, will be gone.

Ok now I am officially excited at the idea!